I don't need you nearly as much as I did before, and that's a good thing. For so long I have hated you, and now the hate has lessened. I think I am beginning to understand you and why I needed you so much. I also feel that we are both trying to trust each other and believe me I know how difficult that is. That "TRUST" word does not come easily to me or should I say it didn't come easily to me. I am beginning to see that you can trust people in this world, have relationships where people don't abandon me, or leave me. I don't want you to be a part of my life anymore, but I don't know if that is possible. I will have to deal with that.I nearly lost everything because of you, including my life !!!