Mungkin ini akan menjadi coretan kali terakhirku buatmu ..
okay ! seperti biasa tak tahu dari mana nak mula , apa lagy la yang aku nak luahkan . Tak pernah puas , ape lagy cukup ! tak penat ke aku niy huh ? macam orang bodah ! sangat bodoh sebenarnya .bodoh sebab DIA . memang rendah dan cetek akal fikiran . huh ;'( kau tahu .. aku malu tau tak !malu untuk terus mengejar kau . mengejar kau yang semakin jauh . aku penat , penat sangat .yang ter' amat . sumpah , aku tak tipu kali niy . almost 1 tahun 9 bulan hubungan bodoh niy , macam - macam dugaan dan kita pun tahu kita tak mungkin akan dapat terus bertahan . Tapi aku sibuk lawan takdir tho . huh ! kan kerja gila uhh :'( okay , isnin uhh aku ingat kau betol - betol dah berubah . aku rasa macam kau betol - betol menyesal . sampai hari khamis . kenapa malam uh kau off fone ? aku cari kau macam orang gila kau tahu ? kau mesti tak tahu kan ? yelah , kau kan ta pernah nak ambil tahu . plus tiada RASA ! aku tunggu dan terus tunggu . Kau tetap begitu . cukup ! untuk kali ini aku berhenti berharap . berhenti mencuba . Aku tak kan ganggu kau lagi :) as ur wished , sayang .
Dan bila esok , tutur akhir dariku telah ku layarkanpadamu . dengan secebis harapan kau akan tersedar , dan menginsafi . keperitan ini akan kau rasai jua ' pergilah ayu '
Sunday, August 1, 2010
I don't need you nearly as much as I did before, and that's a good thing. For so long I have hated you, and now the hate has lessened. I think I am beginning to understand you and why I needed you so much. I also feel that we are both trying to trust each other and believe me I know how difficult that is. That "TRUST" word does not come easily to me or should I say it didn't come easily to me. I am beginning to see that you can trust people in this world, have relationships where people don't abandon me, or leave me. I don't want you to be a part of my life anymore, but I don't know if that is possible. I will have to deal with that.I nearly lost everything because of you, including my life !!!
Monday, July 5, 2010
* ISNIN : sedang aku menaip ruangan ney , aku keseorangan di rumah .
demam denggi , lenguh di bahu , dan sangat saked kepala plus lapar ,
dengan ta mndy tp penuh keinginan nak menaip tentang seseorang ...
Selepas 6 tahun lebih aku hilang hubungan dengan dia , tanpa sebarang
kata , pesan , dan Dia kembali pada 19 - 03 - 2010 08:50:14 mlm
seingat aku , mse uhh aku tga pegang pen , same cara mcm Adam pgg . aku selak tengah ,
tules nama aku ... then aku ta sbr na blek pkul 11mlm uh na onl FB , na tgk adam dh app
blum plus hrap adam m'col sbb aku dh tglkn skly num . huh !
after 2,3mnet . . . . dpt satu msg . new num ! Dan sinilah bermulalah ...
Ai.. It's me . Adam..
aku tergamam , ta terkelip mata baca msg uhh . dkd 10x aku ulang bce bnda y sme .
aku hpy ta t'kate , mcm na nanges pun ad ! Ya Allah , doa aku selama nie t'mkbul jgak :')
mesej AKU & DIA . * even dh 3 bulan b'lalu , tp aku still save msg dia , dan akan terus :')
__________________________________________________________
Ai .. it's me Adam ..
Adam ? really ? Still remember me ?
Faten .. Engat lor ..
** mesej terbaek dari Adam <3
Wait2 .. I ta ngaku yg i manjea n kuat nges owk ? urm .. why u said that 2 me ?
urm.. owk2.. now i have time .. we can share our past story ..
Imissyoutoo dear ..
** others ( 02:00am )
Adam , np ta cntct lgsng ? taw ta Faten cari ?
sorry , tp Adam mmg ade cari Faten lh .. Adam call num rumah tp ta dpt pun .
Adam engat lgy mse 2 kte drjh 6 . mse form 1 pun Adam cari lgy tp num rumah
Faten dh kne potong . Adam taw Faten cari . And hnst Adam rindu .
Oh okay . dh dnnr ?
suda2 .. urm.. tgah wt pea ?
thinking jew :)
thinking of what ?
ntahh . mcm -mcm bnd mrayap dlm kple ney =='
0wh2 .. pea yg mrayapnyea ? cbea share cket ?
** bestparts <333>
hehe .. urm .. dluw blea alst day adam na pndh 2 kn ftn cwh adm d skula but adm ta g kn ?
ftn ade kate na bg bnda .. bnda ape cbnrnye 2 ?
*** phone calls with Adam ( until 05 : 15am )
demam denggi , lenguh di bahu , dan sangat saked kepala plus lapar ,
dengan ta mndy tp penuh keinginan nak menaip tentang seseorang ...
Selepas 6 tahun lebih aku hilang hubungan dengan dia , tanpa sebarang
kata , pesan , dan Dia kembali pada 19 - 03 - 2010 08:50:14 mlm
seingat aku , mse uhh aku tga pegang pen , same cara mcm Adam pgg . aku selak tengah ,
tules nama aku ... then aku ta sbr na blek pkul 11mlm uh na onl FB , na tgk adam dh app
blum plus hrap adam m'col sbb aku dh tglkn skly num . huh !
after 2,3mnet . . . . dpt satu msg . new num ! Dan sinilah bermulalah ...
Ai.. It's me . Adam..
aku tergamam , ta terkelip mata baca msg uhh . dkd 10x aku ulang bce bnda y sme .
aku hpy ta t'kate , mcm na nanges pun ad ! Ya Allah , doa aku selama nie t'mkbul jgak :')
mesej AKU & DIA . * even dh 3 bulan b'lalu , tp aku still save msg dia , dan akan terus :')
__________________________________________________________
Ai .. it's me Adam ..
Adam ? really ? Still remember me ?
Faten .. Engat lor ..
** mesej terbaek dari Adam <3
Wait2 .. I ta ngaku yg i manjea n kuat nges owk ? urm .. why u said that 2 me ?
urm.. owk2.. now i have time .. we can share our past story ..
Imissyoutoo dear ..
** others ( 02:00am )
Adam , np ta cntct lgsng ? taw ta Faten cari ?
sorry , tp Adam mmg ade cari Faten lh .. Adam call num rumah tp ta dpt pun .
Adam engat lgy mse 2 kte drjh 6 . mse form 1 pun Adam cari lgy tp num rumah
Faten dh kne potong . Adam taw Faten cari . And hnst Adam rindu .
Oh okay . dh dnnr ?
suda2 .. urm.. tgah wt pea ?
thinking jew :)
thinking of what ?
ntahh . mcm -mcm bnd mrayap dlm kple ney =='
0wh2 .. pea yg mrayapnyea ? cbea share cket ?
** bestparts <333>
hehe .. urm .. dluw blea alst day adam na pndh 2 kn ftn cwh adm d skula but adm ta g kn ?
ftn ade kate na bg bnda .. bnda ape cbnrnye 2 ?
*** phone calls with Adam ( until 05 : 15am )
Thursday, July 1, 2010
02:52:52am 11-06-2010
ohh yeke ? mest awk pikir kn pe slh awk . kt
sy awk xda wt slh ppe just sy jer yg wt mslh .
x thu npa sy wt awk mcm 2 . smpai skang sy xthu npa .
awk ingt x ? msa sy duduk dpn awk pas2 kongsi bku . sy letak
kpale ats meja awk . jujur sy ckp sy tgh rindu awk .
tp sy xnk tnjuk kt awk . tak thu npa dgn sy ni ..
03:03:02 11-06-2010
i know tht u suffering alot . coz of me i say like
that coz i reall feel tht way . I don't say like that
for you to frgve me . I know that im a bad prson .
but , i do miss you !!
03:06:48 11-06-2010
jordan and charlie <3
03:19:33 11-06-2010
sy x jmpe sspe pun . im just alone .
sy tak cri sspe .tp smpai skrg ,
sy tak thu np sy buat cm tu kt awk .
just 4 now u think about nxt week !
03:25:14 11-06-2010
don't worry for now im already
bside you .
03:34:30
no need return the ring i gave it
2 u 4 not 2 frgve me . tht's the
reason . tell me the truth are
u still wearing it ?
03:36:24
sy bkn nk stop . sy bkn nk mnx maaf .
dh 6 bln sy buat awk t'gntung . lgy
6 bln nie , i wnt to hold u bck !
03:39:18
tht's gud . awk nk thu npe sy ta pkai glg awk ,
cz tli dy dh pts cz sllu kne aer . sy mndy , sy tydo , sy
kua g mna mna pun sy pkai jer . kt sch pun sy pkai gk
tp kt lengan . biar x nmpk dgn ckgu .
03:44:14
who told you ? sy bkn smpati dkt awk !
i telling u the truth . sy akn ad sebelah awak :)
03 :51:38
for evrything tht u hve done to me .
u my 1st love , rmmber tht syg ?
03:58:03
who says it's not imprtnt ?
rmmber .. 12/12/08 11:11pm !!
those stupid msgs inbox , HAHA !
* kau pergi lagy
ohh yeke ? mest awk pikir kn pe slh awk . kt
sy awk xda wt slh ppe just sy jer yg wt mslh .
x thu npa sy wt awk mcm 2 . smpai skang sy xthu npa .
awk ingt x ? msa sy duduk dpn awk pas2 kongsi bku . sy letak
kpale ats meja awk . jujur sy ckp sy tgh rindu awk .
tp sy xnk tnjuk kt awk . tak thu npa dgn sy ni ..
03:03:02 11-06-2010
i know tht u suffering alot . coz of me i say like
that coz i reall feel tht way . I don't say like that
for you to frgve me . I know that im a bad prson .
but , i do miss you !!
03:06:48 11-06-2010
jordan and charlie <3
03:19:33 11-06-2010
sy x jmpe sspe pun . im just alone .
sy tak cri sspe .tp smpai skrg ,
sy tak thu np sy buat cm tu kt awk .
just 4 now u think about nxt week !
03:25:14 11-06-2010
don't worry for now im already
bside you .
03:34:30
no need return the ring i gave it
2 u 4 not 2 frgve me . tht's the
reason . tell me the truth are
u still wearing it ?
03:36:24
sy bkn nk stop . sy bkn nk mnx maaf .
dh 6 bln sy buat awk t'gntung . lgy
6 bln nie , i wnt to hold u bck !
03:39:18
tht's gud . awk nk thu npe sy ta pkai glg awk ,
cz tli dy dh pts cz sllu kne aer . sy mndy , sy tydo , sy
kua g mna mna pun sy pkai jer . kt sch pun sy pkai gk
tp kt lengan . biar x nmpk dgn ckgu .
03:44:14
who told you ? sy bkn smpati dkt awk !
i telling u the truth . sy akn ad sebelah awak :)
03 :51:38
for evrything tht u hve done to me .
u my 1st love , rmmber tht syg ?
03:58:03
who says it's not imprtnt ?
rmmber .. 12/12/08 11:11pm !!
those stupid msgs inbox , HAHA !
* kau pergi lagy
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Awak ,
Every1 knows how I feel 4 u, but u. Is it me? Is it what I said? could this b tru? why am I cryin and ur not here? Keep me close, dont let me go. U r the 1 for me. I just want to let u know. I'm only human, but my eyes can see . That luv was not meant 4 u n me. My heart called u, but u didnt answer. Have u left me completely without a dial tone or an answer? Should we end this way with nothin more? why are u hurtin me? I did nothing wrong. 2 me, I thought our luv was strong. If it wasnt, then it's my fault. Becuz I luv u no matter what , it's my broken heart. Everytime U speak, I hear ur voice. Everytime I cry silently, I wish u were here. Now nothin means more than missin u. I thought we would make it, but I was wrong. Even at this moment, I wish we wld carry on. 4give me AWAK becuz it was my fault. I 4got to luv u completely now u've moved on.We can start a new life 2gether - just u n I, but I want us to start our luv in heaven's eyes. Never let me go, keep me close. 4 u are my luv and I am ur hope. We used to keep eachother in the best conditions - now I'm alone without u here.. such deception. My heart is broken and I can't move. I can't breathe, I can't eat, and I can't sleep. I can't think, I can't feel, and I can't go on. I needed u and only u, but u're gone. Why are we going thru this? Is this something new? We can try again.. only if u allow me in. U shut me out when I said 1 wrong thing . This is supposed 2 last 4ever. This is how its supposed to be. Why am I cryin and u're not with me? We said that we would last until the end of time, but my watch is still clickin.. u're the only dial out of time. Losing u was the best thing to happen to me. I'm not cryin, scared, or lonely. If u wanted more, u should have said it clear. Becuz now I'm fine without u near. BYE
Every1 knows how I feel 4 u, but u. Is it me? Is it what I said? could this b tru? why am I cryin and ur not here? Keep me close, dont let me go. U r the 1 for me. I just want to let u know. I'm only human, but my eyes can see . That luv was not meant 4 u n me. My heart called u, but u didnt answer. Have u left me completely without a dial tone or an answer? Should we end this way with nothin more? why are u hurtin me? I did nothing wrong. 2 me, I thought our luv was strong. If it wasnt, then it's my fault. Becuz I luv u no matter what , it's my broken heart. Everytime U speak, I hear ur voice. Everytime I cry silently, I wish u were here. Now nothin means more than missin u. I thought we would make it, but I was wrong. Even at this moment, I wish we wld carry on. 4give me AWAK becuz it was my fault. I 4got to luv u completely now u've moved on.We can start a new life 2gether - just u n I, but I want us to start our luv in heaven's eyes. Never let me go, keep me close. 4 u are my luv and I am ur hope. We used to keep eachother in the best conditions - now I'm alone without u here.. such deception. My heart is broken and I can't move. I can't breathe, I can't eat, and I can't sleep. I can't think, I can't feel, and I can't go on. I needed u and only u, but u're gone. Why are we going thru this? Is this something new? We can try again.. only if u allow me in. U shut me out when I said 1 wrong thing . This is supposed 2 last 4ever. This is how its supposed to be. Why am I cryin and u're not with me? We said that we would last until the end of time, but my watch is still clickin.. u're the only dial out of time. Losing u was the best thing to happen to me. I'm not cryin, scared, or lonely. If u wanted more, u should have said it clear. Becuz now I'm fine without u near. BYE
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Dear ' V '
Since you came into my life I have often wondered if you were sent to me from God. Do you remember the first time we met? I do. Most men are rude when they approach a woman. But not you, you were quite the gentleman.You prove my first impression right each day we are together. You were right when you said there are good people in the world. You are a great person an influential individual and compassionate friend.You said you were going to be my sounding board and the person I can turn to and confide in. As the minutes, hours, days and now months continue I feel closer to you. You make me laugh when I can not find anything to smile about. Most men run if a woman starts talking about the future. Not you. Thank you for being you. You have exposed me the finer things in life that were right before my eyes. Thank You .
I want you to know how much you mean to me :')
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